I’ll admit it. I’ve had major skin issues since, ohhhh…. I literally don’t even know how long. But, a long time. My sister and I used to have regular chats about what new skin care products we were trying just to see if what was working for me, would work for her. Our confusion as to why in the world we were suffering from adult acne when our parents had never had a blemish in their life, was super confusing – but more than that, it was just down right embarrassing and frustrating.
I’ve spent so many years trying every topical ointment you could possibly name. I’ve tried birth control for the simple reason of trying to prevent future breakouts. I’ve taken medicine, I’ve gone the all natural route.. and though it was a hell on earth to get here, I’m happy to say I’ve finally beat majority of my frequent, painful breakouts. I still get the occasional one here and there during my time of the month, but it’s gone from about 4 really aggressive ones, to just 1 mild one that’s attainable.
But here’s the thing.
Going through all of this? It completely ruined the way that I’ve been looking at my skin. I never really caked on makeup per se, but I was not someone who felt the least bit confident rolling out of my house without anything on my face. No way. No chance. Why? Well, for as long as I can remember, I had something to cover up. Red marks, breakouts, discoloration, pigmentation, etc. It became such a habit to just cover everything up with concealer, tinted moisturizer, foundation, powder, the works.
And then, something transformative happened.
I went to the dermatologist for a checkup as I usually do about once a year. I like to get body scans to ensure nothing strange is happening since I get a lot of sun exposure from being outside, driving, etc. She was asking how I’ve been feeling about my skin lately, and I said that I was actually really pleased with it – no breakouts in a long time, though I hated wearing all of this makeup every day. So she of course followed up with, “well why are you then?” My response was something along the lines of complaining about my discoloration and all of the marks on my face that I was embarrassed about. So she had me completely strip my face of all makeup, and looked at my bare face. She let out a little laugh and said, “Honey – those are freckles. Those aren’t scars or discoloration. Your skin is in beautiful shape and freckles are something to be celebrated, not covered.”
I was like, wait, what? No way. I don’t think you know what you’re talking about. So she put me under a special lamp that shows scaring, discoloration, and pigmentation. Freckles are technically pigmentation, but it’s all about how you look at it. I had no scaring, no discoloration, only pigmentation in tiny little dots along my cheekbones and my nose.
I had been mortified by freckles for years. And now? I feel free.
Free from embarrassment or shame and free from having to wear layers of makeup each day.
A little update on my skincare:
My skincare and makeup routine still stay the same, though now that I’m embracing a far more natural face, I’ve since taken foundation and airbrush powder out of the equation and only use concealer on current breakouts. I’ve also implemented these serums, which I LOVE. This isn’t a push for any of you to buy them, but rather sharing with you what I love and what’s working for me.
Talk about the holy grail, you guys. If I’m going to go make up free for the day, Glow is where it’s at. I wear this, paired with moisturizer and my under eye brightening cream, and I look like I’ve slept for 12 hours. If I’m going to wear some light makeup for the day and maybe have a couple of pesky breakouts, I go with the Pure. Bounce is used at night, and I’m not kidding when I say I wake up looking dewy and fresh.
I hope this helps any of you who may be dealing with some skin “imperfections” or insecurities. I challenge you to see a dermatologist to find out what’s really going on with your skin, and if you’re up for it, I highly recommend trying out these serums to see how they work for you! x